Screw May

May has been suckish.

First, Carter’s been sick for about ten days. He smells like nasty sinus infection – even though he’s being treated.

Second, he decided to be sick on finals week… I’m pretty sure I did bad on all but one.

Third, we found out that the SSA is discontinuing Carter’s SSI check because we have two cars. We need two cars. I can’t help it that my car is $23 over the qualifying limit. Plus, it’s not even technically an asset. I owe TWICE what they value it. That’s $710 per month we’re losing.

Lastly, I found some things out today that I probably should’ve never known. I wish I didn’t. Because now what I thought about a piece of my history was a lie. One of my “relationships” was not formed based on my merit, but someone else’s opinion and as a “deal” for a new relationship to form. I tried being nice, but rubbing gravel on your skin only scratches it.

All of this just makes me so much happier to have Joe. Joe will never lie to me and never do anything in our relationship that is based on the opinion of an outsider. I feel so much more comfortable and secure with him than ever. I can be silly and stupid but accepted at the same time. It really is wonderful to have that in someone who is willing to sacrifice the world for us.

ON A GOOD NOTE: Today was the last final for me this semester!! I’m finally free – not with a degree – but I can’t afford to go back next semester! Lol

I’m going to spend this time cherishing Carter, cleaning house, making my own clothes, and knitting and baking my little heart out. Look out Martha Stewart.

Two More Weeks!

Today is my last class day of this week and after that, only EIGHT remain! I’m so ready for this to be over just like I was so ready for it to start. I don’t think August is going to be so awesome for me. I am only taking three classes, but still… I love being with my biggie.
I’m hoping this summer brings a lot of cleaning and creativity. I know I’m going to have to make Joe’s daughter some play clothes, Joe some work shorts, and some dresses for me (becuase I buy all of Carter’s clothes… He doesn’t dirty them).
I think our professor lost track of time. She gave us 15 extra minutes about 30 minutes ago… When will this class END?!?!?!?!

Homeschooling

This weekend, Carter got us all sick. Not quite sure what we had… His doctor called today and said the culture was negative, but that we may have had something viral. Either way, we must have been running too many errands with him and he picked something up and gave it to us.

This scares me because we were ALL down. We all felt crappy and the two adults (which is better than one adult) who were suffering had to take care of the child that was suffering. I’m talking sputum everywhere and many med administrations, nebulizer treatments and CPT. We can’t afford to all be sick like that. And where’s the worst place for kids to pick up sicknesses besides WalMart and church?: SCHOOL.

I don’t think I’ve elaborated on Carter’s disability, but for this status I will say that his lack of muscle coordination requires him to utilize a tracheostomy and the exposure of his lungs makes him so much more susceptible to sickness than most children. We’ve done ok, but we’ve only had two viral infections. The others were all bacteria. We do especially well when I don’t work because I’m not bringing sickness from the workplace (and I am not working now, thank God).

For this reason, I have decided to homeschool Carter and any other children that may be added to our family. From my understanding, the public school system will allow therapists to come to our house to provide therapy or he can go to the school for set appointments.

Carter always does better work for me at home, anyway. I think he’d be more appreciated and his self esteem would be better.

I’m having a hard time finding help for the curriculum plan. Carter will be 3 in May and I want to get him a headstart. I highly doubt he is mentally slow, but the muscle problems will definitely make things harder for him, but maybe this special attention will help him get on the mental level and help with the muscle coordination.

One of the best homeschooling articles I’ve found is: http://childrensmd.org/uncategorized/why-doctors-and-lawyers-homeschool-their-children-18-reasons-why-we-have-joined-americas-fastest-growing-educational-trend/.

If anyone has any sites to recommend for homeschooling a special needs child, please feel free to comment or email!

melissa.loggains07@gmail.com

The Lazy Girl Hair Plan

I cut my hair in January 2011. I’m not someone who has ever had rapidly growing cranial hair (leg and face hair grows back the next day. Figures). It has taken until recently for my hair to even be past my shoulders.

It’s really bugging me though. My was and wear hair does not produce beautiful waves or unison curls and it’s definitely never just straight on it’s own. When I do straighten it, lucky me, it stays straightened (I only use HOT TOOLS Professional irons) BUT it’s at the length where it wants to stay in my clothes…. I do not like this.

I really don’t want to cut it, though. I just want to get past this phase. I want pretty, long hair.

I went to Ulta today and bought some girly pins, a headband, and a 1.5″ HOT TOOLS curling iron. My idea is to train myself to do my own updos. I have a feeling this is going to be quite hard because just French braiding my hair makes my arms die. Most lazy girls would just say “MESSY BUN TIME!!!” but I work at a law firm and I don’t want to look like I rolled out of bed every day (maybe that doesn’t make me lazy…).

I think what will make me lazy is my ultimate goal. I’m going to grow my hair to my waist, then perm it in HUGE curls so it looks all beach wavy and all I’ll have to do is shower in the morning =) Yeah, that sounds lazier to moi.

Spring 2013

I recently started school again. I’m loving it and although I am struggling with time, sleep and money, I am staying optimistic.

The best part is my supportive family, boyfriend and nurse to my son. They have all been so great and accommodating.

My boyfriend and I have big dreams of moving to Tulsa. We both agree that it’s really where Carter needs to be and I think we’re on the right track of getting our finances in order to do so. I do much better at saving when I have a tangible goal and someone to hold me accountable. It will be much easier to achieve with him rather than on my own.

He’s really wonderful.

My goal is to get my Legal Assistant Associates, then my Organizational Leadership BS. After that, I will apply for law school in Tulsa until I get in. It’s where I need to be, what I want to do, and the salary I need to make.

After a while, I won’t have to rely on ANY entity for Carter’s things that he needs like braces and standers and special beds and things. Waiting on the state for approval of trivial things is a waste of time. Carter outgrows the things we order for him before they even get approved. It’s so dumb.

I’m so ready to be there

Private Practice

I’m sad this show is getting cancelled. One of my favorite characters on TV, Amelia Shepard, is just now starting to build steam. I really hope she’s about to get a spin-off.

ABC’s 666 Park Avenue

Please, God. Don’t let the execs cancel this show! It’s so interesting. No, you can’t just pick a random episode and ‘get it’. You do have to follow this show to understand. But it is SO good! And it’s just getting better.

Unfortunately, it is getting canceled